Have you ever had days or even a season in your life where you have absolutely no idea what is going on in your life, in your heart, in your spirit? Times where you feel so alone. Completely abandon by everyone. You look back on your choices and ask did i miss it again! You look back on other’s choices that greatly affect your life and wonder why we can’t just all get it right! Then i hear that still small voice telling me once again, “You don’t have to figure it all out! All you have to do is trust!” Then i realize i am doing it again. I over analyze everything! When i am going through a trial; everything else is something that i make up in my own mind just to give myself something to do or not do. Why do i drive myself to this point. Self-protection! To protect others!
Then i remember Philippians 4:8-9 Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.
So if i really want to give my mind something to do, i think about the beauty that surrounds me. I think this is why i love vacation so much. I love to take in all Gods glory! I think about the trees, the smell and beauty of the flowers, the beauty of baby deer playing in the field with their little spots still on them and in the distance mommy deer watching with pride. I love moments like these!! I think about how much i’ve grown in my life. I’ve learned alot in my life. I think about how far i have come even when i was’nt sure where i was headed or what i was going to do when i got to where i was going. I think about all the near misses i have had. I think about all the wonderful connections i have made through my life. I think about all the second chances i have had. Then i think about all the chances i didnt take. If i have to have something to think about, i should think about the glorious wonder that life is, has been and will continue to be. Then i ask myself why i think i should know, could know, or is suppose to know everything that is going on! Think about all the good stuff that has happened to you that you didnt know was going to happen. Then i ask myself why are you so fixed on knowing when trusting seems to have paid off so well, so far?
I know i get so preoccupied with trying to figure it all out!! I have to trust that whatever is going to happen will be better than what i know has already happened. Today i am devoted to not thinking so hard about my life. I am trusting.
For You are my hope; O Lord God, You are my trust from my youth and the source of my confidence. Psalm 71: 5
Cause me to hear Your loving-kindness in the morning, for on You do I lean and in You do I trust. Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk, for I lift up my inner self to You. Psalm 143: 8
So trust in the Lord (commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him) forever; for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages]. Isaiah 26: 4
He who deals wisely and heeds [God’s] word and counsel shall find good, and whoever leans on, trusts in, and is confident in the Lord–happy, blessed, and fortunate is he.
Proverbs 16: 20
It is better to trust and take refuge in the Lord than to put confidence in man.
Psalm 118: 8